The Verdict

Annnnnddddd the verdict is in...

I  am ...... NOT pregnant

again.
 
Even though my temp still was sky high today, no drop like normal, I tested this morning and it was a very clear negative.  I have some spotting, not full period like spotting, just tinted CM, and only sometimes when I wipe, but I'm sure it's just a slow start. 
Worst part was that I really had hoped that with all the differences in my cycle this month, this would be it, but nope. It's still not my time.
I think I need to go back to my doctor and talk to him about lengthening my Luteal Phase and hopefully I can get something to help push my ovulation back so that I get more of a regular 12-14 day LP rather than the 7-9 days I have had since July. 
Deep down I fear that I have a secondary infertility or something. I have gotten pregnant twice now, and have had one successful pregnancy, but that just doesn't guarantee that it will happen so easily this time.  
My Doctor once called me "Fertile Mertile", clearly he was mistaken.