Yikes!

Jeez.. blogger drop out! Things have been a little crazy around here in the last month. I busily spent the last month with all my focus on assessments, report cards, parent meetings and wrapping up my school year. Phew!! It was so busy and exhausting, but here I am a month later, and enjoying my first day of vaca!!! WOOT WOOT!! ::Fist pump::
So other than wrapping things up at work, we celebrated Father's Day, I have been kept busy with baking for different events and we ran around to appointments to get all my bloodwork done, and Hubb's Seman Analysis done. We go back to see Dr. Trites July 10th, which is less than 2 weeks away. I am nervously excited. I know this means answers and I am excited to begin the journey, and I feel that much closer to our goal, BUT I get anxious because I am afraid that things may be worse than we previously anticipated.
This is a more emotional journey than I ever guessed it would be. Some days I can wrap my head around all this, and others I just can't. Some days are a pity party of one, and others I am eager for the next few weeks to be over.
It is a roller coaster up in here yo!
Today I am on the brink of a new cycle. I have been spotting for 2 days and I think tomorrow will be cycle day 1 again.  That will mean I have had 3- 30 day cycles. which is nice that they are shortening, but it's not like I am ovulating, so I guess the point is moot.  I also have had the weirdest reactions to my period starting.  I sometimes almost am relieved, because that means that Dr. Trites was right, and we really can't get pregnant on our own, and sometimes I am angry and frustrated that Dr. Trites is right and we CAN'T get pregnant on our own.  It is weird.
I figured, based on when I think I will be able to start clomid (If that is the road we end up taking) I won't be having a baby until at least this time next year, if not later in the summer. I figure that the clomid will take a while to work too. So I still am waiting, but am a pinch closer!
Thank goodness for summer vacation, so at least I am not going to be a crazy person at work during this process.